JODOH PASTI BERTEMU-AFGAN

that song always reminds me to someone... my crush!!!... hahaha.. i started fall in love with him from the first sem.. actually at the first moment.. i hate him,  because i thought that he always felt proud with his title as Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar(MPP).. i really hated him... but after i got to know he at kem rekreasi.. i felt something inside him that difficult to find in other man.. first thing that i like about him is he is a lovely man.. how?? he always patient and understand about other people, he do not feel awkward when talking with girls.. some others man, sometime they always act like cool handsome man.. what? just be your self.. dont control, dont hipokrik!!.. other than that i like about his personality.. i like his relationship with god(Allah).. until at one time... i felt that his personality encourage me to be a good muslimah.. how?? there are hadith saids that 'a good man is for a good woman and a good woman is for a good man, a bad man is for bad woman and vise versa' start from there.. i thought about that.. what i want...??..
beside that, i like to heard his 'Azan' and his talk everyday after asar ... 
that song... i will always remember.. even in the future im not his lover.. but i will always keep praying that my lover have personality just like him.. kalau kite ade jodoh x kemana, Amin.. macam dlm lirik lagu!!!

WHO KNOWS??.

who knows??? it been one year,  im here at mara's college( MARA Ketengah International College)... many challenges and difficulty i had faced.. everything is about to pursue my study to United Kingdom... its never been my dream.. it begins when i got to enter MRSM.. there, they open my eyes, my heart, my soul about what im going to do in the future.. i never thought that i can be in here today... i got excited when i got this offer.. But it begins to frighten when i felt scared that if i fail to fulfill all the requirement to pursue my study at oversea... i scared that if i fail... my family got embarrassment from other family member, feel other friends laughing at me... i SCARED.... so, everything already had pass.. i cant get back at that time... what i had to do is keep moving forward-tagline disney- hehe- that feel still have but that feel will give me courage to keep going...

vIEL gLuCK....( GUD LUCK)

Dah lame rase yer x update blog nie... semenjak.. 2 menjak masuk mrsm nie.. jadi xde mase nk online...
now im 18 years old.. hehehe.. im getting old.. getting mature ~~ sikit lah...  bile makin dewase nie.. perasaan ni mcm rase ade... kadang2 rase mrah gak kat tuhan tpi cepat2 mengucap... biase lah bile dah besar mcm2 keinginan yg kite nk... itu lah.. ini lah... kalo x dpt.. mrajok.. dah terase... aduh.. kadang2 rase baek jadi org yg xde perasaan je.. x yah nk benci, suke, mnyampah kat org len... hidop ni buat dose je,..

1st bile dah besar ni setiap org nk ade pkwe kn? common lah tu.. lagi2 bile roomate kat asrama dah ade pkwe.. hensem lah tu... hurmm... JELES taw...--- nk wat camne kn.. kite nie xde lah lawa, pandai sangat... Maybe ade hikmah kot... hurmm... SAbar je lah... KALO DAH JODOH X KEMANE... :)

Dah masook zaman yg baru nie... niat nie nk ubah perwatakan nie... i want to be more talkative... more friendly... more smiling.. but how? hehe.. i gonna try to be myself... just be yourself.... do not afraid to keep trying.. it does not means when you had fallen on ground.. you can't stand off with the other obstacle anymore..  Allah always knows what the best for us.. Do not cry or blame the past... ACTUALLY it teach us to be more strong in the future... BELIEVE IT...

It Comes.. Has Come.. Had Came.. Final Year..

Everything will change to new... everything....
new shirt.. new shoes.. new car.. new house... new boyfrens..(ade ke?)....new roomate...huhux..(that was my point) next year i will get another roomate....

i will miss u my darling... will i get a nice roomate? could it be? hope it...
there's many sweet and sour in our relationship... always quarrel .... i dont like it..
i LOVE U SO MUCH... mase fes2 dulu... aten kuat nangis... korang lah pujook aten... sayang korang... x sanggop nak pisah... ara, syifa, kuya aten nak mintax maaf kalo ade wat salah... aten banyak mengumpat korang (honestly) sorry... :(
korang lah kawan paling bes and baik aten penah jumpe... our scenario in that room... hehe... cant forget..
Yang paling Bes .... bilik kite paling popular kat sekolah... HEHEHE...
''BILIK GS 309 BILIK TERKOTOR KAT TOP FLOOR''... Hehehe... it awesome... nice work...
agak ar... messy room i ever had... never mind... it fun and funny..!.. i luv it...
second... aten is the most homesick in that room... second syifa... third ara and the last kuya(macam mne nak homesick, tiap2 minggu family die dtg-jeles)... hope next year our relation will more close ... luv u so much... papai..
ASSALAMUALAIKUM..

Diam bkn X suke...

ketemu lagi... windu sama kamu... bapak2.. ibu2.. mas2 gantang pasti tungguin aku.. same lah..
kabare..? wes mangan..?

diam bkn x suke... aten diam.. tapi diam dengan penooh rahsia.. and rase kat dalam mind nie mcm2...
aten tahu ape awk ckp.. ape yg awk tunjuk... TPI.. aten x leh wat ape2... mane ade perigi cari timbe..
i KNOW... IKnow... everything i know... but i cant say that word.... cause.. i hope u say that too me once day... everything...
you said u miss me... i miss u tooo... more than you... maybe... u had say that u want give that word when spm past... u wait me... i wait it too.. but.. i cant believe that u honestly when u said that cause next year many block will we through.... and i had release that our HOPE would not become true.. i release it.. i dont want to think it cause it will hurt me deeply... huhux...

:(....

It was Past and i wrong about it...

it had been so long i did not update my blog... miss u so much.. although i know.. no one read what i write.. but.. never mind.. i just want to say what i feel.. it your right..

i want to pull it back.. what i say about at my place.. i mean school..
ACTUAL.. it was a good time and place so me... i release that it was ..wonderful time in my teenager life actually.. i got new frens.. i know how to stand on my own feet without mama and ayah and family beside me...although it was hard and give sad for me at first time... but believe.. when i live there i know that it no easy to through this life, this teenager, this scenario but i had made resolution.. i want succeed in this life and be a good student, daughter, sister, frens, almost be girlfrens, maybe wife...once day..>>> :D.. HOPE IT..

there... although some of them little bad or does not friendly with me..never mind..(aten boleh hidoop tanpe diowang... x mati yer)..hehe... but some of them was REALLY NICe too me.. im shocked.. hehe.. see.. not all... only some... first semester was a hard time.. my mind..my soul.. all says want back home.. home... homeee... HOME!!!!... hehe.. they make me change my mind.. they are my family... but it just for 5 month only.. we have to break... not our relation.. only class.. in semester 2.. i got new family... it good but 4 ROBOTIC more good.. hehehe..

here.. it come to the end of my story... sorry if have wrong spelling and grammar.. im trying now.. pray it becomes more good... ukei.. have a nice day.. it we meet again..luv u.. papai..

in memOrY...

Hola….!!!

*Assalamualaikum… lme dah x update blog.. wind00 sgt…*

Alhamdulillah.. id00p aten kat tempat baru..ukei.. best… nothing yg mnyedihkn … or irritating n digusting kat sne… semue ukei.. just relationship between me n someone ~~~~crack…. I don’t kknow WHY?? Just.. maybe.. They are m0re clever than me… or otherwise( something they hate about me, maybe because Im a `silencer’)whatever they thinks n say… I can’t stop it… just, maybe when i do something `nice’ t00 mereka… I can change their perceptions…. MAYBE……?? Can i????~~ people who knows im a nice person… they can understand me… BUT… what about other s that thinks me (such a `skema’ person or disgust or something like that… errr)little bit make me mess , stress n sad L….. WHY I must THROUGH such HARD WAY???? ---------TPi aten tetap hapy.. cause aten dapat hapy kn ati famiy aten…cause aten belajor kat MRSM….walaupoon ja00h dri family… aten kne tabah n sabar temp00h untuk mse depan aten gaxx…

When we meet----- have a time with family ,,such a sweet memory( can’t forget)~~~ eat together,sleep together, picnic together…. Senang kate… together-gether lah… hEhe…